A Thought On Happiness in Hopelessness
My why.
I met Jesus as a little girl, but I didn’t really learn how to walk with Him. Or maybe I did, off and on, but the world and its stuff eventually got in the way and I wasn’t ready for it. And when some things happened in my life, I felt like God had let me down. So I walked away from Him for a while.
Only I forgot this: when you belong to God, he doesn’t let go of you. One day, in the middle of heartache and loneliness, I was driving in my car and a thought popped into my mind. It wasn’t something crazy or mystical- but rather a tiny seed of hope that eventually would change my life.
The thought was this: “You are a created being. You should find out what the Creator wants.” What the Creator wants? I had no idea. So then, when I was at my lowest, because of my own bad choices, I asked God for help. I opened my Bible and started reading it like I never have before in my entire life. I had never read the gospels, so I started there. I read them once. Then I read them twice. Then I read them again and again and I fell in love with Jesus. I asked Him to open my eyes and he did.
Want to know the first thing he showed me? My sin? No. He showed me what an amazing creation I am! He knew he created me, but I never stopped to think about the gifts he had given me. My eyes, my ears, my hands, and feet. He LOVED me and he loved what he had created. When you are at your lowest and living in shame, that can be really hard to believe. But the words kept jumping out of the pages and it was impossible to ignore.
Suddenly I wanted to know Him better. The words He spoke to me kept playing on a loop in my mind. “What does the Creator want?” I want to know what God thinks. What makes Him happy?
I discovered that God is GOOD and his plans for me can be trusted. I discovered it is a mistake to blame God for the evil in this world. He didn’t create that, we did! And our enemy, Satan, is walking around like a roaring lion seeking someone to destroy: our families, our marriages,…us.
I decided to start this journal to share with you everything God has been teaching me. I am seeing more and more there are so many of you out there hurting just like I was. Maybe Satan is seeking to destroy you. But God showed me happiness in hopelessness and he wants to show you, too.
I want to encourage you that it’s not too late to get to know the God of the universe who created you, numbered the hairs on your head, and longs for you to know Him. It’s not too late-no matter what you’ve done or how far you’ve fallen- to be forgiven and to start your life over today.
But those who first heard the good news about it did not enter, because they did not obey.7 So God planned another special day. It is called “today.” He spoke about that day through David a long time later using the words we quoted before:
“If you hear God’s voice today,
don’t be stubborn.”Hebrews 4:6-7
